This past weekend was probably one of the most challenging weekends I have encountered in quite sometime.
Between seeing old high school “friends”, addressing the states of some of my current friendships, and handling all of the petty drama in between made relaxing more of a challenge than an option. On top of all of this, my best friends are in Africa for the summer (doing incredible work btw) and Mexico for a missions trip (shout out to Kearstin). It’s been rough, that’s for sure.
My ride home also wasn’t the best. Cruel and bitter people decided today (being Memorial Day) would be the perfect opportunity to literally demolish two lanes on I-5 in the middle of the grapevine. It took me an extra two hours to return back to UCLA. Talk about insanity.
Despite the craziness of this weekend, I am relaxed, so glad to be back at school, and so over dealing with drama. No games, just give me Jesus. I want to be Christ-like, to be completely rid of myself, and fully surrendered to pursue Him. It’s been a long day, but God will always find a way to sustain me.
Goodnight friends. :)
I want chai.
I need sleep.
I need to get out of here.
…and for some reason, I chose tonight to reflect upon my experiences over the past two years (well, since I started this blog) via tumblr. I looked through the pictures, videos, and blog entries I’ve posted, and it amazes me how I am able to recall the feeling I experienced during the creation of that given post. I recall my moments of strength, my moments of weakness, my moments of frustration, my moments of joy, and moments where I genuinely miss people. My friendships have drastically changed and will probably continue to change over the years.
Each friendship, each frustration, and each post symbolizes a small (or large) defining moment of my life. Not my entire life, of course. However, many important moments of my lifetime thus far have been recorded via tumblr. Ridiculous? Maybe. Some people use tumblr as a means of posting silly pictures or videos or venting their troubles and angers. For me, I use tumblr to discuss my life experiences and measure my growth as a person. Perhaps doing this will allow myself to mature in a different way than others.
PS: I will be home tomorrow for Memorial Day weekend to see my dear friends before they leave! Pine and Nevada will be off to Africa and Kearstin will be in Mexico. I must savor my time with all of them. Being home this summer without any of them will be a bizarre experience.
Well, it’s official.
As of last night, I am officially chairman of the UCLA Bruin Republicans. I ran unopposed, but I still feel so honored and excited. It’s hard to explain. I haven’t felt like this in a while. I am the face of Bruin Republicans, and it was proven tonight at the Bruin Leaders Dinner hosted at Hillel.
It’s going to be a long, exciting year. :)
This should be good. :)
I can very clearly recall the moment I purchased this simple, but satisfying pastry, chocolate, and espresso in Europe. As I sat alone and surveyed the European atmosphere, I savored each moment, each bite, and each opportunity to discover Europe for what it truly was.
We’ve all heard the expression that says this: It could be worse.
All of us as human beings experience trials and tribulations that in the moment appear to be unbearable. What is our response? Well, it depends on the person. We all find different means of coping with our anxieties and troubles. Some people occupy themselves with activities or obligations, some drink their chai or their tea and distance themselves altogether.
Personally, I discovered a new coping mechanism I unintentionally embrace: I log onto YouTube and watch how the lives of so many brilliant celebrities have fallen apart. From Judy Garland to Princess Diana, I see their lives and their circumstances and realize that compared to these individuals, my problems aren’t nearly as bad.
I don’t understand this coping mechanism at all. I barely realized this today. Oh, life.
I love this girl! This is Ariel, my not-really RA (she’s the RA in the building next to me). She is simply the best! We have had some of the best conversations over the course of the past two quarters and I am going to miss her immensely once she graduates. From our Audrey nights, our not-so-witty text conversations, our oh-so similar lives, our spiritual conversations, and our not-so-exciting adventures, I am blessed to call Ariel such a close friend and sister in Christ.
Tim told me a long time ago Ariel and I would become good friends. I think he was right. :)
